Talk to someone.

‘Talk to someone’ they say.Β I can’t. I have tried. But I can’t. I did reach the counselor, I have also tried my friends, nor my family. I did said to them that I would like to express the problems, feelings that I am dealing with. But right when they hit back and say “Sure, talk away”, I became speechless, changed my mind, and say “It’s okay, nothing serious”. I Β am not sure what really keeps me back, from speaking out what’s on my mind. I do not know why it is so hard, so heavy for me to answer, to talk, to share. They asked me “what do you stress on so much?”, I just can’t answer them. I like to share things, but to share my problems? Nope. So the end of the day, I just keep it to myself. Secrets are a different thing, I have thousands of secrets, but secrets are meant not to be told right? So I guess it is an exception? What if that secrets is the cause of my problems which leads to stress and depression? If one day I would find the right time, right person to talk to, it will be a long long conversation. But I don’t think that day will come. Ha!

Tribute for Chester Bennington

I am sure that everyone, literally everyone, know who Chester Bennington is. I grow up listening to Linkin Park, and I know all of their songs with the lyrics too! Knowing that Chester is gone, it really shocks me, I feel sad instantly. I could not imagine what his family, and his closest friends going through right now. Chester took his own life by hanging himself. It sounds harsh. But we too never know what he gone through, why he do so. I read online news and media stated it was caused by depression. (Depression is real, and this shows how severe it can be) Fans all around the world is devastated by his passing. I see tributes for Chester in different languages everywhere, on Instagram, Facebook and Twitter. This shows how well-known Chester is. People stated how his music have helped them going through high school, break-ups and so forth. It’s true, for me. Even he is gone, but he will surely be remembered, (this cliche line). I will keep listening to his music, will always love his epic vocal πŸ™πŸ˜ž


Being 90’s kid my siblings and I get to experience the hardship that my parents dealt with back then. They work hard to provide me and my siblings our needs. We got only the essential needs. There were no smartphones, no iPad, no PlayStation and any other high technology gadget. So what did we do for fun? we played hide and seek, Lego, play tea time, watch cartoons together and so on. We have plentiful of what I call, ‘face-to-face’ time. We learned how to tolerate, to look out for each other and many other bonding qualities that we may get. Even if we fought with each other, we know at the end of the day we need each other. Β This has helped until this day to be appreciative and respect between ourselves. Growing up in thriving Malaysian society and culture, which goes through modernization ever day, in my perspective I could see the changes in behavior or attitude in today’s generation. What it seems to be, a negative change. Being pampered with the technology and all the ‘easy access’ causes this negative impact.

From my observation, parents today tend to leave their kids play with their respective gadgets. These kids are immersed to their gadget that they spend their fun time wasted on playing games, watch cartoon in just one hand-held gadget provided by their parents. This causes the lack of real time conversation and interaction among the kids, their parents and people in their surrounding which leads to the lack of communication skills. I went to a house with full of kids ranging from 4 to 8 year old, but I was given the ‘silent treatment’ by those kids, why? they are all getting into their own gadgets. Back when phones are only for adults, I remember during my childhood, we would be making loud noises, laughter and screaming of joy, running around the house even there were visitors. I can also see that most of these kids whom are pampered by technology tend to be loner. They seem to do less talking, and usually are not interested in engaging conversation.

I really hope that new parents today will learn the cons of high technology gadgets on children. How it affects health, behavior or attitude, social activities, and morality of the kids. However, the negative impacts may also occurred to teenagers and adult with limitless control of using technology. The reliance on technology can never be diminished but we can control it. I would like to see the comeback of ‘age restriction’ on using gadgets for kids. All in all, this is just from my point of view living in between the young Malaysian generation. πŸ‘ΆπŸ‘§πŸ‘¦

First Post! The gist …

Greetings, I’m very new to writing blogs. Yes, an amateur. Everything that I write is merely from what I feel and thought of. As this is my first post, the basic introduction for my upcoming posts, I would like to point out some concerns on my writings.

First of all, please excuse my grammar errors if it ever occurred in my upcoming post. I took foundation in Teaching English As Second Language (TESL), and currently a student majoring in English Language and Literature Studies (ELLS). Even with these English background of mine, I’m still lacking in English Grammar. Well, I’m still trying to learn! And this is one of the purpose on writing this blog. Informality way of writing will be utilized, however semantically understandable.

Secondly, it is okay for you, readers, to correct me if I’m wrong in ways such as the grammatical errors I make in my posts or the facts that I quote. If you have the feeling of disliking or wanting to refute on what I post, you may reach me by personal message or email. I believe in the freedom of writing, the power of writing, just like Yeats’s believe in the power of literature writing in politics and war. (To Ireland In The Coming Times, William Butler Yeats)

Thirdly, regarding the topics I will discuss on in my upcoming posts. I will mostly or 100% post in review method/style. Β I put up a general title for my blog; ‘The very Honest Review’ so I will not be restricted to small categories or topic on what I should write. Examples of some of the topics for my upcoming posts which are, review on life events, products, video games, food and beverages, history, literature, music and so on.

Fourth, I would like to express advanced gratitude for you readers because to spend your precious time reading my posts is such an honor. I will try my best to improve my writing further.

I hope my writing will be beneficial to you, readers, as it is to me. Have a good day! Thank you. πŸ˜πŸ˜πŸŽ‰πŸŽŠ